Questionable morals

Thursday was one of the most spontaneous days I've had in a while. I said I'd go gym with Alim in the morning but woke up an hour late - yeh 730 was late. So I got up and hung around for a bit. Breakfast + social media. Then sister came home from a run (secretly hanging out with frans) and asks if I wanna go rock climbing with her friends. I went. 

Climbed like 5 courses then went bouldering. Fingers died and palms got really red. I liked it cause it gives you calluses. Tough hands (Y). 

On the road with sister and frans, they needed to go botany to sign some shit and so I invited hoang to gym with us (me n Alim) cause we postponed it to the arvo. Sydenham then trained to hursy. Ate a vego wrap cause really hungus and then went to fit n fast. Got denied cause I let hoang take alims +1 trial thing so went home. 

Played two solid games if sc2 then prepared to go susannas easter party/ presumed drink up. 

Tbh I didn't enjoy it too much compared to precious drink ups or house party. No food when I came and ppl were smoking so yeh. Nah. I got there at like 7 and drinks were being consumed moderately but increased as more ppl came and things just went down hill. 

So I left to get food - el jannas and it was like 5 chickens, 2 family sized chips, 4 large garlic sauce and 2 stacks of Lebanese bread. I ate the chips, bread and sauce and it was nice tbh. Both because I was hungry and garlic sauce is real nice. For me that is. Subjective aightss. 

However it was really conflicting seeing that it was someone's backyard, small and empty really; ppl + host were vomiting and obv getting wasted not to mention that I witnessed several guys take advantage of the situation eg. the girls who were a bit tipsy; finally the quality of the planning just wasn't there. 

Seriously where are your morals guys. Fkn control your testosterone plz. I hate it when I see girls essentially vulnerable. Srsly Wtf. Not everyone was guilty of this ofc but still by-standers would be just as guilty. Me inclusive. I was just fking helpless. No power. 

Further-fking-more, her mother was watching this scene for half the time. How can you let your beautiful girls do something like this. Alcohol does affect your brain development esp. at a young age and causes disruptions in your liver. How can you not see that alcohol is detrimental ?? Confuses me. Again not saying that the goody goody here. I too have consumed alcohol and I personally do not see any advantage in it. Getting overdone by it just pains me hence why I make sure I take with caution. More caution then the ppl I have witnessed so far that's for sure. 

It's funny. Concluded the night by slipping away quietly again. Like the second time I've done it since Jess' comment. Just slowly slipping away. 

Oh man and there's another one tonight and next Friday. Like wtf, I don't wanna sound over protective, it's not my life to control or intervene but please, mentally you think you're mature but your body is clearly not ready if you're loosing it after a few drinks. Limits please !

Either I'm just a big softie or just sensitive but it pains me to see people 1, throw-up; 2, act in a completely different way; 3, loosing their minds over this shit and finally that they all think its a good time when clearly, look, you are fking suffering. Body begging for mercy. 

Do something man.